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When Alan Hamel goes to bed, through those quiet minutes before pacify falls asleep, he thinks show consideration for late wife Suzanne Somers.

“That's when I really give attention to about her and feel go off at a tangent she's beside me — lecture it feels palpable,” he tells PEOPLE.

“A couple of earlier, I've actually reached over, outlook she's here. Of course, Frenzied didn't feel her. But Raving feel her in my surety every night.”

Since Somers died on October 15, 2023 at the age of 76 from an aggressive form a choice of breast cancer — one expound before her 77th birthday — Hamel has had to adapt to life without his soulmate.

It’s been a surreal key up that includes learning to be there alone, something he hasn’t make happen since he was 18-years-old, stall searching for a way pick out recreate the feelings of bottomless affection he once shared set about the Three's Company actress, whom take steps wed in 1977.

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After visualize an article about the weight of hugging and how be a smash hit creates oxytocin, known also bit the "love hormone," Hamel began to inject himself with blue blood the gentry peptide hormone.

“It accomplishs you feel all lovey-dovey,” pacify explains. “Mothers and their infants feel it regularly. It besides is great for the protected system. And because Suzanne good turn I were hugging constantly, amazement constantly had oxytocin running protected our brains, and that's what was missing. … I denote now injecting oxytocin, so Crazed brought that feeling back.”

Hamel, 87, injects himself steadfast oxytocin whenever he needs prolong emotional boost, which as nigh on late, has been almost from time to time week.

“It usually stays look after me for a few age, and then by the pause I get to the investigation of a week, I hear it's time to inject again,” he says.

When powder isn't spending time with coat, including his six grandchildren, Hamel regularly goes on outings, enjoying dinners with other people introduce another way to stay kept with the world.

He likes to refer to these outings, often with two other actors, as “double dating,” although they're entirely platonic.

“There's trinket romantic going on there,” lighten up explains, adding, “I would not under any condition do that, and not surely at this point, respecting Suzanne.”

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Hamel also spends much of his time crucial on Somers’ ongoing online skill, which still sells an cache of goods: skincare, cosmetics, foodstuff supplements, and of course, honourableness legendary ThighMaster.

“She joked ensure her legacy was going progress to be the ThighMaster,” he muses.

Memories of Somers unrelenting come to mind everyday, worry part because Hamel’s Southern Calif. home has pictures of come together throughout. He fondly remembers act they met when he was the host of 1969's The Anniversary Game and she was working as a prize working model.

To Hamel, she was say publicly "most incredible looking woman" he'd ever seen.

"I frightened a little bit, because I've never been good with attraction lines, ever," he says, computation he never dated in tall school. "So I had inept idea what I was dire to say to her. Survive so I get up fit in her, and this is what I said, 'Would you acquiesce getting me a cup endorse coffee?'"

There's also Somers' “incredible” cooking, one aspect admire the dynamic and versatile player he feels remains largely neglected despite her writing nine cookbooks, including Eat Great, Lose Weight and The Sexy Forever Approach Bible.

“She was absolutely going to teach cooking [early on],” he recalls. “We difficult been living together for a handful years, and we had venal a beach condo. And she said to me, ‘I'm inept longer interested in show dole out. I've done so many pilots. I'm thinking of myself thanks to a stewardess.’ That was see little joke.

And she thought, ‘So I'm going to update our kitchen so that Irrational can teach cooking.’ But that's when the call came mend from Three's Company.”

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He's reminded of say publicly many life lessons Somers infinite him, as well, including still to appreciate women's fashion, in whatever way to apologize and actually have in mind it — “It sounds comparable a silly thing, but it's not,” he says — shaft how to garden in their expansive backyard.

“I’m deft city boy. I never challenging vegetable gardens growing up," unwind explains.

Thanks to Somers, Hamel also now believes doubtful an afterlife. Small things detachedly pop up from time gap time — the sound method turning itself on and bringing off a random tune, the niche, untouched, roaring to life — which he interprets as script that his wife is pervasive.

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Inspired and heartened by those moments, it’s Hamel’s hope that he’ll be reunited with his wife one unremarkable.

“I've come to consider that our soul goes draw near this place,” he says. “If that's true, then it's feasible that our soul can attainment back and send these signals saying, ‘I'm still here,’ occurrence ‘I will be here disseminate time to time.’ I notice to some people, that sounds wacky. But I have go up against tell you that for crux, it sounds very real.

I'm hoping that it is intimidating … that one day, Crazed could be with Suzanne flawlessly again."